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9:35 PM
Pass Out Loh!
Finally the BMTC SCH 2 recruits have graduated and passed out.. It was to me a mixture of happiness and sad feelings. Happy that i've completed a phrase of my military training, and sad to leave behind my friends and my company. We've spent so much time together, be it getting tekan-ed or our talk cock sessions. Now we await our future postings, and god knows if we'd ever see each other again.
The last few days may be to some, a slack week.. However this does not apply to Pegasus. We had our 24km route march with the full body order with the full field pack, unlike some companies which had ahem, stuff newspapers in it. And the worse thing is, we had our parade rehearsal and then, Standard Obstacle Course (SOC) on the very next day. With aching bodies n to some, abrasions on all parts of body and blisters covering our feet, the 700m rundown to the 11 obstacles n 600m back was not an easy affair. The body refuses to listen to the mind, not willing to push itself to the limit during the runs. It was until the last bend that i managed to give it all n rush to the endpoint. Though i passed, sadly i did not meet my target i had set earlier at 9m12s. Still, the feeling of completed our last major event before our POP was still something to bring a smile on to our face. Section 1 did relatively well, managing the highest number of passes in our platoon.
Passing Out Parade was great. Not the parade itself, cause it was some kind of a mini torture to stand without moving. But the happy ending to it, where everyone was in high spirits and went around taking photographs.. Having our parents to put on our jockey caps.. yeah. I'm gonna miss Pegasus though..
I may never march in an infantry,
Ride in a Cavalry,
Shooting Artillary.
I may never fly over land and sea,
But I'm in Pegasus Company yah.
I'm Pegasus Company yah!
I'm Pegasus Company yah!
I may never march in an infantry,
But I'm Pegasus Company yah!
---- Pegasus Coy Song---
6:01 AM
Fate has dealt a heavy blow on me. A real heavy blow. My dreams are mostly dashed, i'm left with uncertainty in the future.
Setbacks are part n parcel of life, and i do hope that i'll grow from this experience. I'm demoralised, but otherwise fine. Life shall still go on.. As Ms Chua had told me, "To look forward in life".
I'm perfectly alright now. At least i can see myself better. I never thought about my future. Now i do, at least.
10:16 PM
Tomorrow is the D-day. either i walk out of ajc with a smile on my face, or head for the mrt station in utter silence. all the memory of the exam has been etched out of my head (mostly). I have totally no idea how i'd fare. but i'm just hoping that i do not get any Cs n below. quite hard for someone of my standard actually. after having a fun day in pulau tekong today, i'm pulled back to reality where i know my future would be gone if i screwed up my exam. but i guess there's really no point to be worried.. because the worrying should have been done 5 months back.
Anyway this blog seems quite dead now. haha..
8:41 AM
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