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6:26 PM
Finally i had a good sleep..11 hours.. not before having a fun time at zouk yesterday
the past 2 days gave me a total sleeptime of only 6 pittance hours.. and i thought i was dying out .. but i still found enough energy to keep me going through till 3am last night..
on the 26th.. the AI gang and tzh came over n ton overnight... had a movie marathon.. and left the next day with my house all messed up... and i havent tidy it up.. zzz
thought my day was totally spoilt when the sentosa outing was cancelled.. but phew.. i'm so glad tt hongyi keith qingyao n kenneth were gg clubbing.. the vj gang.. together with 2 of hongyi's classmates.. one of them ys's gf yanhan.. the other shiqin.. so at least i did have some night activities on.. after walking ard marina sq n suntec in search of the guys' prom suit and stuff.. we found our way to zouk at ard 9.30.. but sadly.. today there werent many people of our age.. coz they probably went for the perogative @ rouge party.. but nevertheless it was still a good trip.. at least better than staying up at home sticking up to the endless broadcasting of soccer matches.. not that i dont like watching.. but.. it's always better to be out.
hmm.. funny thing is.. 7 of us... 5 were clubbing-virgins.. only i've been to clubbing once and hongyi the most experienced.. settled in and had our 2 free drinks.. with stupid hongyi wasting one on LIME JUICE.. of all things.. and regretted it when we all had our tequila shot.. haha..
and after that we had 4 jugs of alcohol.. 2 being erm.. "long island" or long sth.. and then 2 jugs of beer.. tiger beer. but hey.. the tiger beer sux.. we were all feeling a lil high and stuffs before that.. but the beer juz dull our senses and we all felt lethagic after that.. and poor hongyi cldnt tahan.. haha .. but he lasted long enough to get to know 2 swedish backpacking gers.. hahaha..
anyway i gotta thank hongyi n his cousin(s) for the ride from zouk to amk.. it saved me a bombshell for taxi.. 11 bucks of cab fare rather than 20++ from zouk..
later today i'll be down at Ms Kwan Terry's house.. it was nice of her to invite us all over and to cater food for all of us.. i hope our last class outing wldnt end up too bad. but, u know, i'm not putting in much hope.
and jurong swim on monday with the 4Gs.. the AJcians better start turning up after pangsehing us at the last moment on the last outing.. the VJcians will of coz be present.. and Rod! haha i'll see u tomorrow dude.. and i can start gaying with u in the pool.. ohh yeah.
10:11 PM
I'm wondering why i'm stuck at home on this saturday when i initially had tons of activities on. I mean, i could have been back @ RI playing basketball till evening.. and i could have got a few friends and go clubbing @ rouge.. but i put all these aside for the class outing at sentosa.. and guess how it turns up. i'm not blaming people for not being able to go.. those who really had something on.. but i HATE the way that people know what's going on and yet they refuse to give a definite answer to whether if they r going or not.. wtf man, there's no need for suspense here. and therefore i wont give a fuck about 09 anymore. it's just a fuck up class. it's true and damn true. think about it.
11:53 PM
freed. freed completely. now i can throw aside all my notes and hang on tightly to my house key.
(of coz my house key, i will need to travel down to clementi if i lose it in order go get inside my house.) bio paper 1 was okay.. but definitely wont be as good as my prelim result for p1.. it was tricky in some parts and stuff.. yeah..
but.. what's biology? what's A levels? i cant remember them now.. hmm .. *ponders*
it's time to have fun...
seems like i'll be in water pretty often for the next few days.. tmr.. the guys r coming over.. 27.. sentosa .. 28.. ms kwan terry's hse.. 29th.. jurong swimming complex with the 4Gs.. and maybe a swim later today.. that's 3 days of water out of 5.. i jus hope i'll walk out like a piece of charcoal.. my ultimate objective..
well took 1+ hour to walk causeway pt today.. but hell, at 11am most of the shops like 77th streets and x-craft wasnt open.. only bought an OP shirt.. was thinking of buying a red surf pants .. but it's like so red and flowery... too poserish.. anyway.. saw this real poser.. wearing a shirt with a bball jersey outside.. wearing a cap.. sunglasses.. earphone.. bball shoes.. and they're all in the bright colours. and not forgetting.. he's holding a brand new bball in his arms like how waiters serve the dishes. Now.. dont tell me he just came from a bball game.. absolute poser.
anyway.. time to hit the bed.. and then after that i'll need to tidy up the house and hopefully a swim later in the evening at yishun.. but.. sighz.. since i'm home alone and i forget to pack lunch home.. i'm STARVINGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG....
9:51 PM
At 9.15am.. i'll truly be a free man. Free from examination .. and free from parental control.
I shall rule my world.
3:01 PM
maybe i woke up on the wrong side of the bed today.
just felt listless n lifeless throughout the whole day.. didnt want to go for a run, didnt want to study, didnt want to watch tv, didnt even want to play computer games. ok i did play.. but the mood was weird. just felt haplessly lonely and stuff. just hope it would be better off tomorrow. could be tempted to go down to the library.. since it's prolly quite empty tomorrow with people taking physics and the O's being over. or maybe i'll just settle down in the comfort of a fast food restaurant at 888 plaza. or maybe i'll just be rotting at home just like today.
hell.. i should be looking forward to the next day, and the next next day, and the next next next day... quite a busy week ahead.. and future weeks are quite likely filled up with morning exercises and outings. and driving lessons after the 4th when my parents are back. but i need to find a good driving coach or trainer or whatever u call him. with prom night coming on the 8th.. wonder how it'll be like.. will be looking forward to 30 dec for the 'mazing Singapore Race.. trying to arrange a couple of teams of friends to take part and stuff. and then my bday. and then my ns life shall begin. but why then am i so listless today. god knows..
7:35 AM
frustrated. coz i lost a whole long chunk of post. brrrr
anyway.. i'll juz summarise everything since i cant be bothered to retype it all
had a great saturday with Jeffery back from NZ and with the ri ballers. spent the evening lazing ard orchard.
had bio paper 3 today which are the option topics. didnt study much for it. paid for it when i cldnt name a plant which undergoes wind pollination. structured was unsure. had problems deciding if i was to do 1 or 2 essay qn. in the end did 1 only, which was correct. structure was unsure.. more of application rather than knowledge, which anyway i had none.
left with bio mcq on thurs. going run in the morn, study in the afternoon and shop in the evening.
heard jianyuan's dad passed away from a heart attack a few days back.. sad.. but i hope he'll pull strong and strive hard for the exams.. a nice guy like him doesnt deserve this.. sigh..
6:08 AM
lol.. i dont mind tagboard spammers.. but .. yar.. mind leaving a name at least? =)
anyway.. gonna go mug out later.. before meeting out with the bballers..
spam on!
9:13 PM
Boo. Good to have my com back into my room.. though it was tedious work.
yea. today was chem mcq. and i'd hate to admit this.. but my chem mcq is really crap.
yea.. i always blank out when i see the options. would always be stuck between choices.
and my 2 choose 1 ability in chemistry is reallyt amateur.
so.. yep.. haha.. think i did quite badly. and considering the fact that i didnt study..
but i guess.. u reap what u sow.
yep.. i'm expecting a poor harvest..
2 more papers to go.. but before that.. the ribballers are going to meet up again.. yeah.
Jeffery juz got back from NZ, and it's been awhile since we last saw him.. and it's been awhile since i step onto orchard too.. i'm turned into a lifeless freak in ajc.. sigh.. but yep.. wonder if jeffery has got a slang.. like david.. but too bad david cant come coz well, he's back in the US.
but i guess there will be a day where every single one of us will be gathered together.. yeah.. soon someday..
9:00 AM
ok.. havent post anything these couple of days coz
1) boring examination life
2) busy playing com games
anyway taggie is still down for countless days.. maybe i will get a replacement.. too bad chatterbox used for class blog.. lol.. gotta find another reliable one..
and i just found a new hobby... reverse typing! haha.. here's how it is:
-=@Charles@=- says:
4 who ?
-=@Charles@=- says:
wx ?
. }{ y p n o s S . nsm ni doom gnipyt esrever says:
naixnew
. }{ y p n o s S . nsm ni doom gnipyt esrever says:
esrever osla qcm mehc retal
-=@Charles@=- says:
??
. }{ y p n o s S . nsm ni doom gnipyt esrever says:
ha onnud u selrahc
. }{ y p n o s S . nsm ni doom gnipyt esrever says:
lol
says:
eh
-=@Charles@=- says:
??
says:
i tired liao lar
. }{ y p n o s S . nsm ni doom gnipyt esrever says:
edoc esrom
says:
still type
. }{ y p n o s S . nsm ni doom gnipyt esrever says:
erit osla i
. }{ y p n o s S . nsm ni doom gnipyt esrever says:
pots tonnac tub
says:
-.-
woo.. kewl. fun. try figuring out my speech man. and it wasnt tough to get a grasp of it.
6:58 PM
Ok.. maths is now gone from my life.. at least for 2 yrs.. think i did ok for paper 2.. hopefully will end up with a B.. hmm.. must thank mrs soon for her patience and guidance all these while..
and i'm feeling really ill-prepared for chem.. i mean i havent had a single chem practice since chem paper 3 was over.. i've lost touch with chemistry.. pls be lenient on me, cambridge..
anyway.. left with 4 papers.. the longest being 1½ hours.. guess i shld really try to motivate myself to work hard to attain a more decent grade.. but i just feel lost at home.. not wanting to do anything and just wanna relax my mind.. i think i need to spend more time outside to study.. to alleviate myself from temptations to slack.. lolx..
9 more days to freedom. 4 papers. 5 more hours of sitting in the hall. Gogogo.. the last 2 hurdles in the race..
4:06 AM
I accept the fact the some pple r just f'ed up. now everything i do seemed wrong. removing a msg deemed sensitive is noted as clearing evidence and stuff. woah. whatever. an aimless opinion stated can lead to conclusions after conclusions. so why should i bother? if their creative minds can make up assumptions.. over-ruling whatever the source had said.. there's no point in carrying on trying to debate.
coz every other thing i do will be another wrong move.
and maybe u hadnt noticed.. ur first post in this issue just sounded pure snobbish. have another look at it. and u'd think i would type out beautiful sentences in my mood when i see it.
if u are still assuming i specifically target that line at u, den do so. i've stated it was JUST AN AIMLESS SPEECH. something out of my frustrated mood. too bad if u still think i did it on purpose. i wont bother to explain or dig into the issue anymore. i know that line didnt sound good, i nv say it was a purposeful sentence. i nv say i'm correct. but if u assume u're right all the while in this issue, let it be.
1:40 AM
I dont deny that i've a short fuse.. i tend to let my emotion gets the better of me at times..
and there's no denying that i'm feeling frustrated at the pace of responses from the class.
Look here, Charles, Mugger and I are trying to plan some activity. we need to get it done before the chalet are all taken. We try to find the best slot, the best location, the best price.. and all i get was 10 odd pple responding..
was ready to wash my hands off it until mugger n charles took further initiatives to find out from everyone. for that i thank them. for being positive while i was just as opposite.
and my words normally are double edged swords.. i acknowledge that my words normally are sarcastic.. my due nature.. but people do tend to take it on the wrong end.
words typed out aimlessly on my keyboard can lead to strange conclusions that not i had even think of.
But seriously i never will intentionally criticise people.
Well guess lady luck continued to shine on me.. my battery just went flat. Phew. luckily it's not during the exam.. and i love my calculator.. a cool blue colour with AA batteries.. easy to replace.
i hope i havent exhausted all my luck. i need them on 5 more occasions.
7:04 AM
Got a lil lucky.
7:45 PM
Omg.. i thought i was seeing wrong on the nba website..
overall stats goes like this:
45. Shaquille O'Neal (Miami Heat) 16.5 pts
31. Shaquille O'Neal (Miami Heat) 7.8 reb
the ever-dominating centre actually has such a poor stats.. while his teammate wade scored over 25 pts per game.. the big one is turning unselfish??? losing his dominance with one leg still not healed??
and while Kobe got his wish..
1. Kobe Bryant (Los Angeles Lakers) 29.2 pts
but heats are 4-0 and lakers arent faring well... haha.. so much for big egos..
and i'm so so glad my phoenix suns are back in business..
my once favourite team are finally performing..
i was a fan of them till they trade their best player and my idol Jason Kidd away.. and they were obviously making a wrong choice as they slumbered tt season thereon.
but bringing back steve nash and making good draft picks like shawn marion and amre stoudamire... haha.. i'm pleased for them.. the old phoenix suns is back..
wonder if newcastle and kieron dyer will make a good comeback soon too?
9:08 AM
Feeling so lethagic now.. it's been long since i've hit the pool for a proper swim.. those sentosa and jurong trips obviously are not in the category of swimming.. anyway.. dint get to run as planned today.. gt to yishun @ 8.10 and wx arrived at 8.30.. couldnt find anywhere to put our bags and that we only had like 20 mins do run only.. so we eventually hit upon a fitness corner.. but i guess we're all really weaklings now.. both of us had no problem doing 11 pullups for A in napfa.. but today.. we were dying when we hit 6.. lolx..
hmm only swam at the intermediate pool today with the AI gang consisting of boonkiat, wenxian, kian wei and weiqiangg.. u gotta ask them y they dint go to the big pool =\. but 4 hours of pool action really got me quite quite burnt.. haha.. and was training my breath meanwhile too. sigh.. i cant go one breadth of the pool without coming up now... best was like 4/5.. =gt home after lunch and felt sleepy.. slept for 4 hours till now.. but this also means it is an unproductive days in the area of mugging.. i gotta hit the stats soon... to secure an B at least hopefully.. i dont dare dream of A anymore as it is nt an difficult paper and there will really be alot more pple who's gonna do way better than me..
2:28 AM
Heading for a morning jog and then a swim in yishun with the guys from 09..
I'm just wondering how me n wenxian gonna run with our bag of swim stuffs..
But this is an opportunity to lose some fat.
*pats my bulging belly and it wobbles*
3:17 PM
quite depressed now.. i think i really screwed up Maths paper 1.. it wasnt tough.. but my mind wasnt working well.. was having a headache.. and i got almost the whole function graph qn wrong i think.. got 1 of the stationary point max/min wrong.. got Q5 wrong.. bah. shld have lost 30 marks by now.. and i dunno how much more mistakes i've committed. really sad..
bio was okay. i tried to bullshit my way through the essays. did the protein qn and the blood transport qn.
haiz. really need to get damn high for paper 2. and i'm known to be getting mind blocks during paper 2. how... if u teach me how.
6:34 AM
hmm cldnt sleep at night n had only 6 hours of sleep.. but i guess chicken essence in the morning and some limp bizkit music blasting through ur ears on ur way to school does help to keep u awake..
Thought chem wasnt tough.. it was manageable..
if i aint wrong this is the first time in 2 yrs tt i attempted all parts.. lolx..
but i guess i shld have chosen to do biochem over food chem.. haiz..
the food chem option topic was tough... maybe coz i focused on the wrong parts ..
hm.. think i can get at least a C hopefully?? anything better wld be a bonus, anything worst is disastrous.
bio paper 2 and maths paper 1 coming right up. i'm just praying that nothing weird comes out.. i'm kinda worried for bio essay coz.. i've flopped big time with inadequate revising for bio essay during prelims.. and for maths i still lack practice and understanding of topics like complex numbers.. (dont tell mrs soon tt i nv do my tutorials for tt). but hey.. after tomorrow i can give myself a break and go for a jog and a swim.. 27 more hours to go before a mini-break in this period of stresses and anxieties.
9:17 PM
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woah one of my ideal job?? but dreams are seldom fulfilled.
7:25 AM
Monday and Tuesday will be the most important days in this exam period. coz simply the most impt papers in each subjects are featured and packed tightly into 48 hours. after that.. it will be another week before my next paper. should concentrate fully for these few days.. and i'm concentrating well by being constantly online.
went out to 888 plaza for another mugging session.. but seriously.. i'm still quite unsure about certain concepts.. need to read up on all the subjects b4 each exam.. and of coz.. more practice for chem n maths.
after tues.. if i'm still alive.. will be heading to the driving centre to register my advanced driving theory test.. after dragging it for so long... i simply muz complete it before i step onto tekong. what do i mean by 'dragging long'? well.. jonathon who was supposed to be taking the test with me.. can drive now (i think).
unfortunately i doubt i can afford to own a car unless i somehow strike a toto first prize or something.. even if that happen.. most probably the money will be for me to pursue my marine biology dream.. or i happen to win some contest that gives away a car?? sigh.. maybe i shld have joined the 'stick-ur-hand-on-the-car' contest.. 3 days... i believe i can last long enough out there.. one hand holding my mugging notes and other other.. of coz on the car. or chelsea can come n sign me up, i promise i wont be taking any thing that 'boosts my sexual performance' [i dont need them anyway.] and stuffs like that. n i'll be asking for only 1/10 of mutu's wages. of coz, my standard will be 1/10 of his (hopefully.) and my dad's probably will try to stop giving me allowance after my exams. but thankfully.. i'm prepared my lines of argument to retain my share of money till NS.
anyway.. guess i better start reading my bio notes.. while constantly checking on the hollywood stock exchange.
4:56 AM
Just started playing Hollywood Stock Exchange.. some mock stock market based on real life hollywood stuffs... it's gonna be a game for years and years.. haha.. let's test my stock market skills b4 i decide if i shld venture into the real world stock market. and if anyone out there r interested to play.. my nick is mercurial_vap0r.. lol.. but meanwhile my money's getting eaten up by the commission.. as i kept pressing the wrong buttons lolz..
GP wasnt bad but i believe it wasnt good too.. nvm.. gotta concentrate on chem paper 3 maths paper 1 and bio paper 2.. seriously i dun feel ready for these.. think my standard now is only about C or D.. haiz.. gotta need to really revise and practice over the weekend to have any chance of performing well.. anyway.. gd luck to all...
7:33 AM
my neighbour's bike got stolen. haiz. dunno if it's the painting workers or someone else.. but juz going to keep a lookout for it perhaps.. and be more careful with the stuffs around. anyway.. if the thief wants to steal my gp notes.. i'm more than willing to offer them to him. =)
1:30 AM
hmm.. reading into old blog entries bring back alot of memories.. be it sad or joyous ones.. but memories are just something behind u... we still need to look ahead in life.
5:28 AM
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