_just me_
_just me_
_just me_
_just me_
_just me_
8:54 AM
i've been ever so positive, encouraging people. but i know my true self. i'm a very negative person.
it's tough to continue -trying- to be positive when me myself is flooded with all the negative thoughts of me.
i'm getting really tired. i just need a long break off from everything. no point in forcing me now.
it's not that i m giving up. its not that i'm trying to be irresponsible. it's just fatique bringin me down. my confidence is already at it lowest point, n still it is experiencing increasing deceleration. i just have no faith in myself. sorry.
7:56 AM
ok i wont give a fuck care about basketball anymore.
u dont give me the chance, dont expect me to do a shit.
3:50 AM
RAGE.
Tomorrow against RJC. want to win them badly
not becoz of tt 'sonic the hedgehog' winston hodge rejected my appeal back in december 2002.
but more imptly i want to achieve something with AJ bball team.
i wouldnt give a damn about what other people think about us. be it lousy or whatever.
all i can say is, the AJ team in the past 2 matches isnt our real self.
those who like to put us off before they play us, i would like to bring them back to the scenario 4 yrs back.
Thank you Manjursi for looking down on us. ur ass is sore on that day when we played u in the semis, aint it?
i just hope we can acheive our primary objective tmr. be it a 1 pt win or a 100 pt thrashing.
let's just bring on our real game, play to our true self, even if we lose to , say, hougang sec if we played our best
i've no regrets. whatever. i'm just in a fiery mood that just cant be expressed purely in words. bring me kerosine n i'll show u what i'm capable of now.
yea bring it on. i cant wait any further. let it begin. enjoy.
8:33 AM
kinda fucked up day.
imagine one moment ago u were having a cool hair with a mini-mohawk, and with shaved lines along the side of ur head. having 11 other teammates having the same style. then, the next moment, u were forced to shave off the sides, leaving a ultra fucked up ugly shit hair.
How would you feel?
well, enough of the hair issue. what's done is already done. i can just imagine my frenz laughing at me in sch n ard clementi sports hall. in fact, i'm counting the number of pple who's gonna make a 'polite' comment about my new coooool stylo macho hair. against hougang sec tmr. gotta win against them. hopefully we'll get a good start.
just not in a good mood. got ticked off for being rude to my mum. what the fuck? did i say anything? i was just being quiet n that's rude?? whatever man, i aint gonna bother. there's more impt things that requires my attention.
8:19 AM
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