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7:42 AM
i dunno how much longer can i remain as a toon army fan. How much more heartaches n depressions .. so much troubles at the club. lack of harmony, sale of their best defender in which newcastle's defence has already been poor.. players' disputes ... what the fuck man. a team with so many big names but cant even beat clubs like norwich. I'm losing it. Losing the support i haf since pri 3.
Home Alone. My parents went KL till monday evening.. n my sis was at home from hostel for 2 hours b4 going to ritz charlton for some dinner or so. so i'm left to rot alone at home.. feeding my fish, water plants and eat. anything n everything but study. GP prelim is just 6 days away damnit. what m i doing?
9:04 AM
omg. i think i m born to hack. or i'm born lucky. just hack into an account of some sort on first try of the password. now i aint saying anything more or i will get into deep shit. haha
7:11 AM
Lucky i aint getting any ill feelings in my tummy after the meal @ Toa Payoh Centre after all those chilified green tea. Think i'm too slack already.. took me 3 days to finish genetics .. wtf?
die already lo.. fail already haha..
watch Fear Factor on ch5 today.. and at a bad time too.
the contestants were eating penis.. yea.. p-e-n-i-s .. while i was happily munching on my Char Kuey Teow. had to stop eating b4 i start puking. Although i must admit i'm a little envious about the bull. =P i hate one of the bitch contestant. making so much comments to make the other female contestant puke.. only to be worse off. but somehow she made it. n was calling everyone a wuss for sitting on the wooden planks while moving across in the air. i'm so glad she dint win.
I dunno if i shld hope for no EPL or pray to be able to watch it.. coz i seriously need to study and tt 3 hours of soccer on each saturday could be converted to meaningful time..
Just watched the vcd of my china trip.. brings back wonderful memories.. although i HATE to let people have a copy of it.. so Charles.. since u got hold of a copy of it.. keep it low.. I might kill u some day of i hear anything..
6:02 AM
Hmm.. Singapore Idol dint have any big surprises.. i was hoping to see the huge bills of young gers and also a haircutting session.. haha.. would be funny if tt is so.. nxt week episode contestants look boring.. somehow?
8:02 AM
somehow to main background of my content section is down. for a few days already. sigh. shld haf saved it n upload it into my own server. did nothing productive yet today. i couldnt control myself n played CS with the keyboard n mouse on the floor, while my mum's out. must say i'm damn lousy now.. haha.. too rusty already.. esp. in this bunny safari server where it is a heavily modded server (with superhero mod). nevertheless i still got a +ve frags despite my countless suicides with my crazy "bomberman suicidal mode". wonder if i can hold myself back from games on this weekend when my parents head for KL.
2:40 AM
Everyone do have some deep down secrets.. that they dun want people to find out or know.
unfortunately an incident which i found it to be deeply embarassing has surfaced. now i pray that it would be kept silence, by passive persuation to violence, that the 2 person that happen to know it will not bring it up. I pray that tomorrow morning the secret would not be let out. I pray that.. wait, who do i pray to as a free-thinker? hm.. interesting.
7:25 AM
Do you know that squids have a mating dance? that a frogfish (or something pronounce quite similarly) literally walks on the seabed?with a worm like whisker hanging in it's face? that there's a kind of octopus that can change its colour within a second, mimics other fishes, use it's tentacles to pretend to be a sea snake? I learn all these from a doctumentary of marine life.. based on the indonesian sea. it's all the wonders of the marine world that got me attracted to marine biology, to know about the other world of our lovely planet.
Played badminton with the rest of the 0903 peeps today.. b4 watching the olympics table tennis women semi. Of coz our country's Li Jiawei was up against some korean. I hate koreans. No, that's too generalising. Lemme rephrase. I HATE SCREAMING AND SHOUTING KOREANS. how i wish i can bitchslap these kind of pple. ok no offend to koreans.. if u dun yell all the time. I experienced a strange emotion wave during the match. from high to ultra high ( that 11-0 part) and then till i couldnt even bare to watch the match point (buried my face in the middle of my pillow and let my ears do the work). Sigh. I heard the stupid darn yell. But i believe Li Jiawei tried her best though. I'm still proud of her as a Singaporean. Let's hope sydney 2000 wont be repeated again.
Been ultra unproductive after the stupid bio test. Somehow the feeling of 'studying is pointless' got into me. Let's hope i can bring myself into the mood of studying real quick.
6:25 AM
any feedback on my new template? haha.. will get the links n stuffs up in the nxt few days.. be patient.. yonghao blogskin v2.0 50% completed!
7:02 AM
Singapore had just banned poultry import from malaysia due to H5N1 avian flu in kelantan. and i had chicken in all my meals today : chicken chop, chicken rice and the chicken wings in my packed economic rice. While i believe that the poultry products here in Singapore are safe for consumption, and tt those imports from Malaysia are relative safe, i m fully in support of the Singapore's decision to impose a ban on these poultry products. Some Malaysians , as reported in The New Paper felt that Singaporeans are overly kiasu. But please be reminded that this strand of H5 or H5N1 avian flu virus has killed 27 in Vietnam and Thailand, and that those unfortunate people r mostly village dwellers who lived in a sparsely distributed area. Remember SARS? In Singapore, if one of the 4 millon population is struck down with the avian flu and not quarantined in time.. this virus will be spreading like a wild virus. Meanwhile gotta keep my body in good health condition. Been getting this dryness in my throat for the past one week. Especially after walking in the rain for over 30 mins today trying to find Yishun South CC near Khatib MRT station.. -immune system shutting off- Of course after a late night sleep last night to watch Zhang Xueling and Li Jiawei playing in their respective quarter final.. i need more rest.
Singapore's only potential medal hope now lies in Li Jiawei after she swept past Wang Nan yesterday. Domineering performance by the China-born Singaporean. She took Wang Nan out of the game effectively.. but somehow Wang Nan always delay Li Jiawei's gamepoint by a few balls in all the rounds. Like the first 2 games.. Singapore was leading 10-4 for both n then Wang Nan got 3 straight points b4 Li wrapping up the games. Will be anticipating the semis.. i seriously hope Li Jiawei can bring back a medal and a glimmer of hope for all young SG sports athletes who dream big.. to bring back the hope that Singapore can achieve.
4:33 AM
productivity? that's not found in my dictionary.
i'm juz rotting in front of television screen, wasting myself away.
cant bring myself into the mood of full time mugging.
i need an environment like the RI boarding,maybe minus the late nights card gaming of the past.
i need a perfect environment to study.
where can i find it?
7:35 AM
Sigh. Susilo lost. Screwed up a relatively easy chem pract. so guess it's not a gd day.
Found out how much bio stuffs i had to revise through after i combine both the j1s n j2s topics inside a file. my old file too small.. n the big aj file just manage to hold all in to the maximum capacity. intend to finish half of the j1 topics by this weekend.. with maybe some revision of j1 maths as well. weekends will never be the same again. sigh.
8:51 AM
its rare these days tt i've a foul mood over my result aint it?
but that happen to me today. over my maths test.
i've scored a miserable 15.5/30. tt's a c5.
but what pissed me off wasnt my lousy score.. it was my carelessness in this paper.
i lost 8 marks out of 8 for the hypothesis testing qn. was wondering if the half blank notes were missing out some important components. but after looking through.. i generally got all my steps right, with the exception of some minor mistakes in my statements. juz becoz of 2 mistakes. 8 marks off.
one is mispressing on my calculator. i hit '80' instead of '60'. gone is 4 marks. and next, i forgot to put the '-' sign for the second part of the question. gone is another 4 marks. no method marks was given.
den i flipped to the pages in front. ALL my workings for ALL the questions were CORRECT. lost marks for squaring one side n missing out the square on the other side. lost marks for missing out ' r = ....... '. missing out another '-' sign. practically speaking.. i could haf scored at least 25 for this test. no kidding. that would be almost 80%, n not the 51% tt i got. the biggest thing is, i took 2hrs to study for this test. even did 1 or 2 tys qns for the topics. i dun remember putting in effort for any of my tests this yr. not even midyr where i only read thru n not practice anything. to haf put in effort n got this kind of score tt i dunno if i should deserve. my frustrations were vented on my poor stationary, my chair and my table, juz stopping short of tearing up the paper.
n had this guy who kinda piss me off slightly on the train. maybe my mood was foul enough.. n tt's y i was getting angry..
on the way home, i grabbed a copy of TNP (as usual) n read it on the MRT (usual business). the train was a lil crowded.. n while the rest of the classmates engage in their conversation i was busy reading into the newspaper.. i couldnt help but noticing tt there was this guy who was peering over my shoulder to read the newspaper. not tt i mind.. i'm fairly ok with it coz i DO does that occasionally, to read off the headlines. however as pple alighted at khatib station i found a space at the side of the door where i would always stand at. think i always haf a routine of doing things eh? so yep.. i went over to tt spot. to my annoynance that guy follow me suit, stood beside me n continue peering into my paper, this time he was in front n not behind me. freaking annoying isnt it? to be reading a newspaper n haf someone free-reading off u, kind of stalking my copy of newspaper. i felt like slamming the newspaper into him ( maybe still in my habit of throwing things n abusing things ard after my maths fury), but decided otherwise, coz it's wasting my 70 cents, n he will be earning tt 70 cents aint it? but i probably look up at him with a foul face. hmm seems effective. after 30 secs he moved back to his original position. good dog. he's working so aint he be able to afford tt 70 cents for a copy of the newpaper? i mean its extremely annoying to me.. like not showing respect to me... follow my newspaper around on the train. remembered tt when i was in sec2/3 there was this RI senior who walked up to me after i closed my copy of TNP n asked if i could lend him for awhile. i obliged n even willing to offered the copy to him. n he returned to me juz as i alight. that should be the kind of attitude man. at least ask. ok the scenario aint exactly the same.. but hell, i will give a glare to whoever peeping at my newspaper in the rude manner.
hmm gd news to end a bad day. Susilo won the german.. yay.. i'm still pretty much engrossed in badminton.. wonder why? haha.. but it's glad to see tt singapore has a good medal hope.. after the table tennis 4th seeded doubles team fell out of the competition.
wait tt's a bad ending rite.. ok gd news is tt timetable will be shorten nxt wk.. no more headaches after 3pm for me.. esp the regular headaches i've been getting week in week out on tues.
4:15 AM
hmm.. think i'll make a new skin. but wont be up so soon.
coz i'm nagged at an interval of 15 secs everytime i sit in front of my computer.
3:55 AM
sian. stupid chem n bio. i felt i dint utilize any of my revisings for these papers.
needing a big sleep to recharge myself after yesterday's crazy note browsing session.
9:57 PM
I feel really lifeless in AJC. Somebody save me.
8:27 AM
Almost got struck by a huge tree branch this morning outside school
think it landed approx 30cm in front of me.. sort of missed the group of girls walking in front too. that tree obviously got to be taken down.. saw quite a number of smaller twigs beneath the tree too. get it out of the way b4 someone gets seriously hurt.
11:59 PM
ok i got freaked out. time to change my profile n remove some lines in friendster.
got this guy who is interested in meeting people for "dating male, relationship male" sending me a msg. oh gosh.
11:42 PM
Happy National Day Singapore!
39th years of our country.. wish u may continue to prosper..
Last week has been a week of great food for me..
got 2 free treats..
thanks to Weichao/Derek and David
treat 1:
went to Toa Payoh with the aj bballers to dine at Crystal Jade
had La Mian n the fame Xiao Long Bao there
was Weichao n Derek's treat with their scholarship money
we had like 22 steamers of xiao long bao!
treat 2:
was yesterday after our gryphons cup tourament with the ribballers
David went for his modelling photoshoot n was convinced of giving us a treat
We were down at Bishan Sakae Sushi at 9.10pm.. the last order was at 9.30pm
8 of us were split into 2 tables
despite having only 20 mins to make our orders.. my table consisting of me, ah hwi, wong n kc did not failed to chalk up a hefty sum of $103.. all credits due to kc, who was a frequent customers to jap restaurants n dint fail to recommend us 'good jap food'. the other table (david, david wu, jaron n zhaoming) totalled up $46 bucks only.. felt real bad, offered to pay part of the bill but david turned us down. Thanks bro!
despite having free food i somehow managed to spend over my allowance for this week.. wonder what i spent on.. anyway gryphons cup had come to a close with the Ri'02 yellows coming in as top 8.. lost to the eventual 1st runners up by a mere 4 pts. it was a closer fight than the score suggested.. no thanks to the constant complaining of the blues '97 whom we totally lost our respect to. they thought nothing of the numerous underhand fouling methods they present to us n screamed at every slight contacts we made to them. 3 on 3 competition for me ended in the semi as we lost to the the champion team. the tourament was second, catching up with old buddies was the priority for me. all the funny talks got our spirits high like the stuffs from our days.. n also hearing interesting tales from other jcs like the gothic girl from vjc , n all the acjc happenings. somehow made me depressed as i wonder y ajc is sooo DEAD.
holiday to me is really a holiday, = no work only play.
somehow maybe i think i may haf to force myself to at least flip through a topic or 2 b4 wednesday. not forgetting the stupid hormonal stuffs mindmap tt i gotta do.
hmm meanwhile for today's national day parade gotta have my eyes glued to the screen. maybe i mite catch a sight of peiwen performing in the parade. haha..
10:02 PM
It's been a week since i got my com with internet connection up n running.. in my living room.
been a hectic week.. with the planning of AJ race hogging my brain memory space most of the time.
well.. it's been pleasant to note tt we've won AJ RACE
with a score of 183.5, well over 20 pts of the closest rival!
well done 09/03.. we rawk!
also.. i've sadly been missing the gryphons cup ... not being able to turn up.. however.. we managed to win all our games.. well done non-RJ j2 team! yep.. our batch has been split to 2 teams.. Rj n non-RJ team.. basically the key members of the RI b div team belongs to the non-rj j2 team .. hopefully i'll be down for the last grp game tmr.. n play a part in our quest to proceed into the semis.. n so on..
a long weekend ahead.. gotta spend my time wisely.. no more com games.. although the temptation is creeping back in .. but hell no, i'm holding back... nono..
my tagboard's been quite dead although the hit counter has been increasing by 40 this week.. haha. wonder y.. juz drop a msg in my tag can? so i haf something to reply .. yep.
11:38 PM
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