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5:26 AM
Quite disappointed with how things turn out. While i'm on a tight budget, not being able to afford a decent meal for myself and had to starve... and someone had spent my money away. And all these out of goodwill. Out of blind trust that i placed on people.. whom i barely knew. Maybe i should not judge people based on impression.. sigh. And now i gonna continue to shrimp and save and who knows if i'll ever get that money back.. That feeling sucks. I mean.. y am i down to 2 dollars when i should be having ard 50.. and to the extend that i had to draw money out of atm just for a meal when i shouldnt be? And that people whom i thought are nice had actually use away your money.. And maybe my lack of persistent in asking for the cash back did me in. I hate to ask for things back.. because i always had the trust in people. Maybe that should change.
Enough of my rantings about my short of funds and stuff. Was pleasantly surprised that i fared reasonably well in my last compre of the year. Just got it back today and the content marks was already higher than my prelim compre even without the language marks added. although i believe it's an attempt by our teachers to boost our morale b4 the big one. afterall.. AJ GP sux.. No denial there. No point in the teachers continuing to dampen our spirits and let us step into the examination hall pissing in our pants and such. Well.. i can only juz hope that i dont ever screw my last gp papers up again.. i know how unpredictable my GP can get.
Tomorrow it's going to be back down to woodlands lib again. no more 888 plaza these few days.. i'm paranoid of fast food.. lol.. think if i wake up early tomorrow i'll be down jogging around the estate.. or maybe i'll run my way home after mugging tomorrow. provided the weather's favourable.
Life's gonna be routine and routine and routine. Well for some others it has long been this way. Guess i cant complain.
6:02 AM
That Girl - Stephanie Kirkham
Sitting in a long dark dress with coloured tights
Shuffles his letters by candlelight
Romance, enchantment, emotional bliss
She whispers “forget the fairytale myth”
Under a clear sky branches stacked
Fat cat purrs and tiptoes past
She draws a circle, strikes a match
Paper curling, burning, turning to ash
That girl, you know she’s dysfunctional
One step forward and two steps back
That girl, she’s uncommunicative
Only talks to her black cat
Caught a glimpse of the future, stood on the brink
She went running to help her think
Thought the faster she ran the more she’d find
Tough luck she always fell behind
He dissected her like one of his engines
Studied the parts but missed the poetry
Threw incense on the fire, it crackles and glows
Read the last note where he calls her his rose
That girl, you know she’s dysfunctional
One step forward and two steps back
That girl, she’s uncommunicative
On the porch with her black cat
She’s breaking inside, unfulfilled, unrealised
Circle on the calender marks the day she died
He wanted to be her connection, he wanted to be her reason, he wanted to be her roots
But you know what – she doesn’t need them
That girl, you know she’s dysfunctional
One step forward and two steps back
That girl, she’s uncommunicative
Still talking to her black cat
That girl, she’s unpredictable, oh
That girl, she ran
She ran for the love of running, the love of running
She’s dancing round the fire singing
“If love set’s you free, then this couldn’t have been love
It couldn’t have been love, it couldn’t have been”
Love sets you free, it set’s you free
Made a few changes to the incompleted blog.. this will do till i have time to use photoshop n do some stuffs with it. After "xing fu de di tu instrumental" and "disguise".. this is the 3rd song uploaded.. "that girl".. had wanted to switch songs earlier but apparently something went wrong with some other songs.. by the way.. all these songs r from "100% Senorita" soundtracks.. lol.
8:42 PM
Hmm it felt like exam was over today.... NYP for lunch and then to grassroot club for bowling.. tsktsk..
anyway chem prac didnt go well for me.. firstly i thought i screwed up my VA.. dualtitration.. nv did it before so i was proceeding with a darn cautious.. was in a shocked that my first and second results actually differed by 1cm... den i began to think what could have gone wrong.. and my third try was even slower... and it was almost the same with my first. den i realised that i must have noted the initial readings by 1cm off (2.7cm instead of 1.7cm) coz both titrations were exactly 1.0cm off from the other 2.. damn! to think i spent so much time on this crap.
with so much time wasted.. i proceed to the second exp. quite simple.. and then i turned n read through.. skipped the next few pages coz i wanted to do all the experiment b4 settling down for the calculations.. big mistake. only realised at the last 5 mins that there was ANOTHER part that need to be carried out. so.. yep. it's blank. except i filled in the first part of the table from the previous experiment.
and i was going to do the graph when i realised my ruler went missing. and it occurred to me that i must have taken it out at the lib yest.. and thought it belonged to cheehong. so all i was fanatically looking for something to serve me as a decent ruler. well, i must say the test tube holder is made of the highest quality.
QA .. quite gone case lar.. didnt think i will do well for it.. design exp.. didnt complete. coz of the stupid screwed up VA earlier..
so overall.. bad.
Well after school.. went to nyp mac.. help meimei buy her Hello Kitties.. den headed for bowling. haiz. i still dont feel ready for any of the papers yet.. next paper: GP in a week's time.. hope my inconsistent compre will not disappoint me this time..
3:41 AM
k that's the priority in my life before i step onto tekong. besides continuing with my driving tests which has halted since march. anyone up for diving?
8:23 AM
hmm.. mug @ wdls lib at 12 with kaiting.. was having quite a crowd outside there when i arrived.. so i juz headed straight for the cafe instead of vieing for the good seats upstairs. yep.. was there till 4 when kaiting decided that we shld go get some food.. took a walk upstairs den realised shawn siow was there wif another aj guy.. damn we cld have shared the table with them.. haha .. but nvm.. anyway headed to 888 plaza.. coz somehow kaiting suggested there.. and continued our revising till 6... budden the mugging at 888 wasnt tt useful. coz i was distracting kaiting with a certain "P" .. only he will know who that person is.. right?
and tonight msn was flooded with the conversation with kt and junhao.. jh being my pri sch gd buddy... anyway.. dark secrets were exposed.. wahahah .. of coz not mine.. i nv let mine get exposed.. no chance..
mugger n charles.. isnt that true?
anyway tmr gotta be hitting back to the lib.. cant A levels juz finish and let me get on with my life ? i so badly missed doing sports n going out n stuffs. damn.
7:57 AM
An ice skating performer fell into a coma after slamming head first into the hard cold ice ground.. and few days back me and mugger yong were still laughing at some video entitled "ice drop" which had similiar incidence.. damn. as u see, life is fragile.. you could be performing and suddenly u're taking a deep sleep .. or someday u could be walking along some blocks and some window juz fell onto ur lucky head. so.. we all shld live life to the fullest. enjoy everyday as though it is ur last day. and that's y i shouldnt waste my time mugging off. not worth it. yep.
initially planned to mug at wdls library with probably cheehong and yanting.. den some changes and the plan changed to amk kfc or library wif cheehong's frenz.. but i couldnt get my lazy ass to agree with this proposal and phew, in the end managed to get kaiting to accompany me at wdls lib.. but abit the bad to him.. he has to come all the way from tampines.. nv.. it will be a quality time spent .. even though our only common subjects were GP and Maths.. haha.. ok.. tomorrow i'll start mugging hard..
7:32 AM
Hmm.. while the rest of my classmates r slogging inside the lab now for their Physics Practical.. here i am.. slacking at home.. hope that everyone will get smooth swings on ur pendulum and strong batteries (or power source) for ur electricity prac.. maybe dropping physics wasnt such a good choice for me.. (i had the extra time for myself and less stuffs to study in mind when i made that decision.. but all doesnt seem true.), but it wasnt a wrong choice if i am to pursue my dream. budden.. the dream abit the difficult to acheive la. soccer was great to watch last night.. Newcastle giving me the typical heart attack again.. dominated and went 2-0 up before the scoreline getting to 2-2, 3-3, before bellamy pacified me as i was about to reach for my pills for heart attacks(did i have them anyway?). and Arsenal stopped in their bid to reach 50 games unbeaten..
Hmm doubt i'll be out studying today. Thought of going to wdls lib but abit the silly to be down there on my own.. tmr will make an attempt to be there early though.. meanwhile later in the afternoon i will again -try- to do some revising. TRY. no promise
8:02 PM
gossiping with keith has always kept me entertained.. omg i'm luffing all the way to bed later..
9:21 AM
New Mugging Location of the Day : Vista Point
Me and Cheehong had to settle for the foodcourt called Viva or Vila or so at Vista Point after wandering aimlessly around Causeway Point and Woodlands Civics Plaza without finding a place where we call home. of coz, not stopping at locations like "Comics Connection" or "Timezone" where we spent a grand total of 30 mins in all. So we decided to take a gamble and take bus 901 to Vista Point instead of the usual 888 Plaza where we're seriously getting sick of the fast food from KFC and Mac (even though we only ever had an icecream there).
The A&W, probably the best place we could have settled in, unfortunately is no longer standing in Vista Point (nor any other parts of Singapore). the foodcourt.. provided a 10% filled air con location.. reasonably big.. but with an annoying churning sound coming from god-knows-where. and of course, we had a desert to go with our mugging session. started from 4 to 7. and we actually met out at Causeway Point at 2.30+ . the ATM was positioned at a strategic location which i couldnt have missed and 20 bucks flew out of it magically into my pocket to save my starving stomach.. which had only tasted a cup of coffee, a piece of lemon cake, a prawn burger from Mac and a honeydew sago desert since 10am. then.. as curious young children we couldnt help wandering into the world of "Uncles Tidbits" where we , what else, bought tidbits.. not long after we parted ways and began our individual paths walking back home.. reached home at 7.25.. and was greeted by the sight of Elva singing at some TVBS (taiwan channel).. her voice accompanied me till 8 which soccer then took over the task of keeping me occupied. then some lame chats with mugger, charles, and then kaiting and junhao.. and here i am. oh wait.. soccer's getting impatient.. i gotta go ..
7:53 AM
heh. stinks at home. apparently they r repainting the estate. the new blocks look good but i hate the smell of things around here. heading for school to mug later today, since i'm now in the stage of having 5 bucks in my wallet till i get my cash back.. no more kfc mugging or mac mugging or such..
10:06 PM
I thought bio prac was going to be a breeze when i look at the test samples.. maybe it would be if i hadnt screw up the second question on photosynthesis..
sounds easy right? i mean.. wassup about photosynthesis.. u definitely need green leaves and a light source.. but hell, the test with DCPIP was damn screwed up.. my capillary tubes almost had not reaction.. wtf? den i tried to note down results accordingly.. den flipped to the back page and saw another data for the graph which totally is the opposite of my test result. so i feign the recordings in the end.. the slides were still okay.. on kidney.. although i forgot tt the cells were called podocytes.. ouch.. the chi square test shld be okay.. dunno might have screwed up something who knows.. like the genetic cross.. hm..
Got home and slept all the way till 5.30.. den tv all the way.. haha.. thought singapore idols were getting worse n worse.. maybe juz got sick of their voice.. but some were disappointing.. in fact most lar.. and i'm sure that i've heard a better rendition of 'dreaming of you' somewhere.. =)
7:05 AM
Tomorrow the start of A's.. Bio practical.. haiz.. and i'm still so addicted to computer and tv..
again.. i'm giving up animal histo.. pray for me.... please dont have slides of animal tissues and the likes.. gimme a plant ... plant.. plant..
hmm hwasan said weichao going for op.. budden his words always cannot be trusted.. anyway.. i juz hope tt weichao have a speedy recovery..
7:01 AM
Got my enlistment letter today.. I'll depart this island onto another island on 8th Jan 2005... anyone in the same shift as me? BMTC School 2 (12.45 report time)..
Anyway.. i'm glad in a sense that i get to spend my birthday b4 i enter NS.. will have some great fun before i embark on the mission to defend our country..
8:11 AM
haiz. sometimes life can be so fragile. 2 of my classmates grandparent juz passed away.. zhihao and bernard.. jie ai shun bian k? den weichao is at ttsh.. peiying has got dengue fever.. hope they recover soon and in time for the practicals..
hmm if only today was the first day in school.. den maybe i may still have some life in me. but hell, i wasted 2 freaking years only to regret. seeing how hwasan seems to know everyone and yet i knew no one.. haha.. ouch.
bio practical on thurs.. i doubt i have the time to study much.. gonna hit the first few chapts of bio tonight. and see how i die on thurs. dont even know the shift and seating... haiz. i'm just hopeless..
5:36 AM
I had always believed that one shld be spending his birthday only once in his whole lifetime.. that is, on his birth date. but weichao.. we'll be down to keep u accompany tomorrow.. sincerely hoping that u will recover well...
6:44 AM
past midnight now.. it's officially sunday. mugging time. lemme get my sleep first. before that, i need to feast on the drumstick sitting at the kitchen waiting for my mouth. then i will sleep.
9:14 AM
woah had fun today..
went to sentosa to celebrate joe's bday.. was with tzh and joe's brothers.. sadly no other 0903 joined us.. bernard nt being able to make it due to some unfortunate circumstances.. take care yea ber? was playing volleyball and soccer and once, both sports at the same time.. wonder how we manage that .. then later in the afternoon shuqi yanting and shuxin joined us.. basically it's juz volleyball, soccer, and the sea the whole day till 6. was in fact quite amazed when i actually saw a few schools of fish at the wooden platform at palawan beach! how i wish i had taken the goggles out of my bag then.. den can dive underwater to view them.. there were alot of crabs at the side of the platform too.. i was trying to catch them, saying that they will make good chilli crabs at the newton food centre.. but unfortunately i failed.. anyway.. the crab size range from a 50¢ coin to maybe a peddle.. i only managed to touch 1 of the crab's legs and therefore, return 'empty handed'. and that STUPID YANTING ( revenge for scolding so many stupids for me in her blog) .. so SHALLOW ASO DUN DARE TO SWIM. 1.8+ metre only what.. i can stick my hand out when standing at the bottom. den muz grab me back and forth the platform.. STUPID SIA.. ok better not say anymore b4 she bites me like what she did to charles.. oops. of coz.. joe cldnt escape being dumped in the sea.. despite shuqi's resistance..
anyway.. headed to newton food centre at ard 8.30.. sorry to the rest of the 09s waiting for us since 7.. haha.. had some great food.. although i'm still damn hungry! cant help feeling hungry after i somehow magically dropped 1.5kg yesterday what.. den we drank 1 bottle of beer ... everyone taking a few slips only.. though some of them were tasting alcohol for the first time or so.. den we caught joe and started vandalising on him.. the fate of birthday boy.. i'm glad no one dares to touch me on my birthdays.. hahahaha.. and i always manage to escape dreadful celebrations as my bday is like right at the start of the new school term.. well.. we headed home after the tiring day.. tiring for the sentosa pple at least.. swam so much to pick up balls in the sea and to FERRY SOME PEOPLE..
mass conference starting soon. guess i better go call in b4 i get scoldings.. ciao
8:42 AM
hmm farewell ceremony.. was.. a BORE.
sigh. anyway we went to walk ard city hall after school.. den some of them went to boonkiat's place.. was supposed to go there after taking some stuff from home but got so tired tt i slept at home ( as usual) .. idol results coming out soon.. hopefully those who deserved to be out.. please scram. those xx church pple.. please vote with your heart, and not vote blindly. put that guy in the right place, and not giving him blind hope.
anyway tomorrow gonna be down at sentosa.. palawan beach i think.. for joe's birthday. wild time it's gonna be tomorrow. good luck joe.. maybe i wont be in the mood to do anything but laze around the sea and beach to suntan. or maybe i might find myself crazy.
and anyway i hadnt been studying since prelim. but i promised myself saturday will be the last day of my nonchalant way of life. sunday i'll convert myself into a full time mugger. somehow i am a guy of poor self control. still remember how i started studying for prelim the night b4 when i moved into the ri boarding school. and i've been alil slack in it with midnight activities when i ought to be sleeping.. haha.. but yea.. i gonna turn really into a full time mugger.. promise!
5:07 AM
graduating tomorrow..
sigh..
how i wish i had done more in school.. instead of lazing and sleeping ard..
maybe i could have had a better life in ajc then..
but it's of coz too late to regret ..
i can only make good use of tomorrow to close the final chapter of my jc life..
6:49 AM
zz.. y did i haf only $13 to jade crystal..
had ard 80 bucks initially.. den 50 to the dinner and dance crap..
den 10 for chem.. my money just flew away so suddenly!
anyway xiao long bao still quite nice.. although i heard tt dunno what at paragon sells even better ones.. if i strike toto i'll go there.. but how to strike toto when i dont buy them? haha..
school's coming to and end in 2 days. 2 days. 2 days. 2 days.
sighz.
7:46 AM
Dint get to play rugby today.. sigh.. i havent touch a rugby ball for 2 yrs..
tomorrow heading to jade crystal for lunch .. missed the xiao long bao... wah.. can imagine the juice squirking out inside my mouth again.. seeeensation!
3 more days to graduation... i really regretted wasting my life in aj away.. there's really alot more things that i can do.. maybe i shldnt begin with such an negative attitude with my life in ajc.. sigh.
6:51 AM
day:
reach home at 3. sleeps till 7. watch tv, eat, write for hueychyi, watch tv, supper, computer ( now), and sleep. what a fruitful day.
i dunno if i'm looking forward to graduation ceremony or not.. coz i want to get out of jc life. yet there's too many things undone in school. how? will i acheive what i want by friday? doesnt seem so. sigh.
meanwhile.. gonna grab some rugby ball for pe tmr. afterall.. i've been playing rugby throughout my whole ri life.. it's strange not to touch a rugby ball for so long.. anyone up for some real stuff?
i aint a good rugger.. but i've got the burning desire to grab and pull that asshole with the ball down.. and did i mention i lurves dragging people along the floor while i run towards the touchline? oooooh yea i hella lurve that..
8:30 AM
Lonestar - Amazed
Every time our eyes meet
This feeling inside me
Is almost more than I can take
Baby when you touch me
I can feel how much you love me
And it just blows me away
I've never been this close to anyone or anything
I can hear your thoughts
I can see your dreams
I don't know how you do what you do
I'm so in love with you, it just keeps getting better
I wanna spend the rest of my life with you by my side
Forever and ever
Every little thing that you do
Baby I'm amazed by you
The smell of your skin
The taste of your kiss
The way you whisper in the dark
Your hair all around me, baby you surround me
You touch every place in my heart
Oh, it feels like the first time every time
I wanna spent the whole night in your eyes
I don't know how you do what you do
I'm so in love with you, it just keeps getting better
I wanna spend the rest of my life with you by my side
Forever and ever
Every little thing that you do
Baby I'm amazed by you
Every little thing that you do
I'm so in love with you
It just keeps getting better
I wanna spend the rest of my life with you by my side
Forever and ever
Every little thing that you do
Oh, every little thing that you do
Baby I'm amazed by you
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dont ask me why, i just feel like posting up this great song..
7:31 AM
the weather's never been good to me whenever i want to swim. 3rd or 4th time already!
it's always the dark glooming cloud over the sky, blocking almost all the penetrating ray of hope for me to get tanned and lose weight. sigh. shall see my luck tomorrow. made me wake up at 9am for nothing. that's so early. haha..
tomorrow i must.. must get in some maths paper 2 practice.. i MUST NOT GET MIND BLOCK AT PAPER 2 AGAIN. NEVER AGAIN!!!!
anyway.. juz got a new found hobby.. handphone photography! not the normal kind.. it's the negative and black/white pics! think i took some cool pics.. using one of them as my wallpaper now.. hey check out my phone on monday yea? and it's pretty cool to be making ur own mms pics.. tried doing one today.. and guess what, it's based on the picture located right on top. yep, the beach.. will try and continue my hobby in my spare time.. haha..
8:02 AM
thank u ms kwan-terry and mr ong..
at least now my grades look better.. i didnt think it was possible to edit the master scoresheet anymore..
tomorrow hopefully will be able to go for a swim and then shop for some stuffs at causeway point.. and then settle down to do some maths and chem practice..
4:49 AM
Question 1: If you knew a woman who was pregnant, who had 8 kids already, three who were deaf, two who were blind, one mentally retarded, and she had syphilis, would you recommend that she have an abortion?
Read the next question before looking at the answer for this one.
Question 2: It is time to elect a new world leader, and only your vote counts. Here are the facts about the three leading candidates.
Candidate A - Associates with crooked politicians, and consults with astrologists. He's had two Mistresses. He also chain smokes and drinks 8 to 10 martinis a day.
Candidate B - He was kicked ou t of office twice, sleeps until noon, used opium in college and drinks a quart of whiskey every evening.
Candidate C - He is a decorated war hero. He's a vegetarian, doesn't smoke, drinks an occasional beer and never cheated on his wife. Which of these candidates would be your Choice? Decide first, no peeking, then scroll down for the answer.
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Candidate A: is Franklin D. Roosevelt.
Candidate B: is Winston Churchill.
Candidate C: is Adolph Hitler.
And, by the way, the answer to the abortion question: If you said yes, you just killed Beethoven.
Pretty interesting isn't it? Makes a person think before judging someone. Never be afraid to try something new.
Remember: Amateurs built the Ark Professionals built the Titanic and in case you never saw this one..!
....
Can you imagine working for a company that has a little more than 500 employees and has the following statistics:
* 29 have been accused of spousal abuse
* 7 have been arrested for fraud
* 19 have been accused of writing bad checks
* 117 have directly or indirectly bankrupted at least 2 businesses
* 3 have done time for assault
* 71 cannot get a credit card due to bad credit
* 14 have been arrested on drug-related charges
* 8 have been arrested for shoplifting
* 21 are currently defendants in lawsuits
* 84 have been arrested for drunk driving in the last year
Can you guess which organization this is?
Give up yet?
It's the 535 members of the United States Congress.
The same group of idiots that crank out hundreds of new laws each year designed to keep the rest of us in line.
saw this in the bulletin of friendster... since i'm so bored with life and nothing to rant about here..
juz decided to post this up to show that i'm still active around.. =
6:51 AM
aint in good health these few days..
today i was down with a bad cold accompanied by a headache..
and i had to stay back in school for the darn mock maths paper 1..
ended up finishing 1 packet of tissue (thanks simon) and then spent half an hour loitering outside the auditorium.. standing at the corridor breathing fresh air before moving to the stairway for a rest.. got quite a few stares though.. (what is that guy doing there.. so wierd.. ) but at least i wont pass my cold to the poor guys around me in the audi with tt sneezing ..
finally caught an episode of extreme gourmet.. been wanting to watch it since the first show but somehow.. a big SOMEHOW.. i keep mixing up the time schedule for the show.. ahh.. and today was yvonne's last appearance as the guest.. damnit... anyway.. how i wish i can eat the bugs and bat meat for her.. =X aha.
anyway uploaded the fuzzy pic on my com.. will post it on later.. enjoy the pic..
5:50 AM
ohhh i love my msn picture... haha...
5:37 AM
for 3 nights i felt that panadols are godsend items to save mankind.
when painkillers administered to me couldnt save me
panadol were readily available at the medicine box.
panadol fast relief pills, that is.
hereby, i thank the inventor of panadol,
my mum for having purchase them,
my family for not finishing them,
and my tooth that made me realised the importance of panadol.
think tonight i will need the service of the greatest invention of all time..
4:33 AM
hmm. some people r taking sleeping pills to get a good night sleep.
for me.. i'm taking 2 panadol fast relief pills before i can sleep.
it's an agonizing pain.. and people that know me will know that i seldom show pain.
but this was really killing me.. i almost wanted to rip out all my teeth..
juz that i fear that i may bleed to death if i pull them all out.. and i dont think i want to wear those fake dentures..
and after seeing a dentist.. the tooth is still inside.. i'm heading back on maybe tues to get it extracted then.. meanwhile i've been administered antibiotics and painkillers.. but it's still hurting. especially when i'm about to sleep.. the pain would juz morph into a big monster and haf me lying in pain. and the pain exerts and extend onto my right eye, my right cheek, my brain.. giving me endless pain.
and know what? i realised it was all my own doing.
2 years back..
the dentist at national dental centre drilled a hole and told me to head back in a few days time to get it filled. and i missed the appointment due to unforseen circumstances.. and never return..
sigh. if only i had turned up then.. if only..
7:36 AM
today sux.
sux.
sux..
sux...
sux.
8:33 AM
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