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4:24 AM
damnit
today is a crappish day.
first i got a bump on the head for drawing an offensive charge on the opponent, hit the ground hard n it's still hurting like hell. how m i to study man.. den we lost the game, could haf won it though, wasnt our day we made silly turnovers. n i worsened my ankle injury (again.) what's worst is tt my teammate jonathon, whose still sec 4.. was elbowed by the opponent n got a deep cut juz below the eyes which required 3 stitches.. his whole face was damn bloody.. damn scary.. we tot he had hurt his eyes coz we cldnt see where he was bleeding with the whole face smeared with blood.
den i farking hell drop $10 on the floor, was putting my money into the wallet when 1 $10 note slipped out. was like 1 sec, i saw a glimpse of someone behind me bending down. felt something was wrong, open up my wallet n saw short of a $10 note, by the time the guy was quite far off (he's been sprinting into the crowd) n with no proof of him picking up my note.. fuck it.
6:43 AM
speechless. totally. greece were the more hungry side. france? go home lar. disappointing. the way they play looks like some old grannies taking a stroll down the park.
8:49 PM
i have one whole bio untouched. n competition on sat n sun. sunday game most likely gonna be an walkover game. poor siglap. unfortunately (or fortunately) we had our 'xiao dui' aka small team in our grp. meaning we can play cheat n let the Whye Lai (White) [which is my team ] go thru to the next rd. haha.. maybe sat i'll head for sch to revise, coz i juz cant concentrate at home. my target for this mid yr is: not to fail any subs. nt gonna be easy for me, coz i know my lazy self.. but nt impossible too.
2:51 AM
had a tiring day today. first was to mug in school. from 10.30 to 3.30. read thru my maths notes all the while.. nxt up was my game with siglap club. we were quite obviously poor, n i mean extremely poor in stamina.. coupled with my sudden sickness which i felt like puking somewhere at the end of first quarter.. i muz admit i had a bad game.. eventually third quart i played for 2 mins b4 asking to be subbed out. overall play time was ard 17 mins.. with 6 pts. that leaves my competition points to be 1, 6, 10, 3 ,6 for all my games.. nt good. lacking match fitness..
well, i wagered my first pool bets today.. put 5 bucks down on a portugal win. actually i was more on the side of england initially.. but after my fren had betted 40 bucks.. i feel bad if i go against him. imagine if i won.. would i be cheering or feel sad for him.. so.. best is to stick along n LET'S WIN SOME CASH. another bet i had was for the france game, 10 bucks.. hmm.. actually i juz need 1 win out of these 2 to cover my ass n get back my 15 bucks.. but.. of coz i will win both!
7:29 AM
ok.. my second rd of youth cup is starting.. nice dates too .. this thurs, sat, den nxt mon. meaning my results will be totally crap. need to do a gd planning of timetable for the next few days. not gonna touch com till exam's over.. yea i had to do so. juz maybe checking mail daily n tt's all. furthermore the Whye Lai teams (white which is my team n green , the vj j1s team) r drawn into the same grp. gosh. meaning that we haf to maybe kill each other for the qualification. sigh. oh btw.. if u happen to see me online .. pls chase me off. i mean it. =\
10:35 AM
too dependent on chinese-english dictionary? this was in a email sent by keith..
4:24 AM
well i tried to add a audio management cgi script into this blog, but guess i wasnt computer smart enough to understand how to copy those files in. really very messy.. hope i can do more studying n briefly finish up my chem. time's running out..
10:54 PM
Lene Marlin - Disguise
Have you ever felt some kind of emptiness inside
You will never measure up, to those people you
Must be strong, can't show them that you're weak
Have you ever told someone something
That's far from the truth
Let them know that you're okay
Just to make them stop
All the wondering, and questions they may have
I'm okay, I really am now
Just needed some time, to figure things out
Not telling lies, I'll be honest with you
Still we don't know what's yet to come
Have you ever seen your face,
In a mirror there's a smile
But inside you're just a mess,
You feel far from good
Need to hide, 'cos they'd never understand
Have you ever had this wish, of being
Somewhere else
To let go of your disguise, all your worries too
And from that moment, then you see things clear
I'm okay, I really am now
Just needed some time, to figure things out
Not telling lies, I'll be honest with you
Still we don't know what's yet to come
Are you waiting for the day
when your pain will disappear
when you know that it's not true
what they say about you
you could not care less about the things
surrounding you
ignoring all the voices from the walls
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well had been playing Xing Fu De Di Tu instrumental for some time.. think it's time to change the music.. maybe some more lighthearted ones to suit my background.. will change the music again n again as time goes by.. meanwhile maybe i'll put the links of those previously played songs in the blog so everyone can still listen to them =) anyway this disguise n xing fu de di tu r from the soundtrack of Qiang Jin Bai Fen Bai (100% Senorita).. a really gd show with a fabulous soundtrack..
9:27 AM
ok i guess the blog is mostly done up. for the time being.. looking to add more stuffs after exam.. now.. gotta watch tv n study chem.. sigh..
5:40 AM
hey this is juz a testing template. it's half done.. juz wanna try out how it looks.. anyway i've got 2 other test template sites.. at vap0rtest n vap0rtest2.blogspot.com .. yea.. so.. i'll get this blog done up after mid yr.. argh.. havent even finish studying chem.. maths n bio still untouched.. tmr got isla outing somemore.. brrr.. die liao.
3:21 AM
Hell, i've juz watched the best game in Euro 2004. didnt regret nt sleeping despite my tireness to watch this. czech 3 - 2 holland. numerous scoring chance from both team, in fact i believe a draw wld be a fair result. however, i felt the dutch lost coz of the coach: taking out the best player robben. dang, this is the type of football i've been waiting since the kickoff of Euro 2004.
1:36 PM
havent been blogging coz.. well.. nothing to blog about anyway.
life's a bore.. everyone r like busy muggin while i'm wasting life away
as home.. playing cs.. my fone's Q*bert game.. watching soccer.. sleeping.. playing tamagotchi.. yes, tamagotchi, the little virtual pet in a machine.
thx to mr. ong asking me to go sch to collect notesyesterday..
me n cheehong went at ard 1pm
but the bkshop was closed.. but it was a productive session coz i spent 4 hrs there studying.. otherwise i wld haf been wasting time at home. gotta go on tues to try n collect notes again.. not monday, coz i heard my sis bf is coming over on sunday to watch soccer.. meaning late night again for me.
been thinking of changing my blog skin.. maybe soon there will be a change.. still planning.. n with many more links to be added.. well, hopefully by tmr i'll get it done..
1:56 AM
Been busy n lazy to update the blog these few days.
anyway had service learning wth yishun student care centre on 10th .. was the arts workshop. i missed the sci workshop. the kids were quite adorable.. cute .. my handling of kids werent good coz i nv had a younger siblings.. but i tink i did fairly ok with them. most memorable was glenn.. some kid tt ran ard the whole day.. extremely naughty. but to my amazement i was told he was damn shy n quiet on the first hour of the first workshop on 9th! omg. he opened up after he got to know our class better.. but i wish he hadnt open up so much =
played the bball game at ard 7+ tt day.. the weather did no good to us as it was still drizzling when our game started.. wet courts which inhibit our movements.. but the refs of coz dont want to waste time by postponing the game n risked the safety of us all. typical singapore screwed up refs, money n time matters to them. but since we had qualified n with a number of us carrying injuries, our coach told us to play a relac game with juz outside shooting, no fast break, n not to really challenge for offensive rebounds. with that , our game was limited to 3 pt shooting which obviously got easy to be guarded. the opponent were still playing hard coz they wanted the win, while we were ok with any result. so we lost by ard 10 pts. however somehow our coach got hold of a rumour that their team had an illegal non-sgrean players. now they may get disqualified since our coach had went to BAS to lodge an complaint (i think). anyway both teams had qualified b4 our game so the outcome of tt match doesnt really matter.
today.. went out with the ri bball gang for some bball, of coz at our old ground, RI.
david's back man. with an darn american accent which he claimed couldnt change. his chinese was still normal though. we had 3 hours of bball with the other old boys n then went for dinner at 8+. had 'zhu chao' or 'zhi cha' like what we call it.v den wanted to watch the jack neo film but unfortunately the seats were sold out. we then bought booze n went on top of the bishan bus interchange carpark n had the drinks. had quite some fun. knew more abt how's my ex from rencong too .. haha the informer.. nt tt what i heard matters.. but it's good to know that she's doing well..
today marks the start of euro2004. i bet it's gonna be portugal 3 - 1 greece. wanted to bet but the pools outlets were closed. nvm test my prediction today. oh darn greece scored. haha.. nvm.. gotta start my first bet in this month.. ok off to watch
8:54 AM
To have what u have put in effort taken away from u is holy piece of crap.
to remove me n to put me into another experiment, n then fucking let someone who did nothing take over my role n have me doin some other shit isnt quite fucking right.
i have my principles of doing things, n i certainly dont like the fucking way i was taken out of the cartesian project. it totally kills the mood, n i might as well not do this fuck up shit at all. i dont need the cip hours, i dont need anything. as long as i dont like the way things are carried out n managed, i wont be part of it. whatever u may think of me, i have my own principles, my own way of doin things.
9:46 AM
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